The Gossamer Project Author - Title - Date - Spoilers - Crossovers - X-Files - Adventures - Stories - Vignettes Other stories by Keleka From: ephemeral@ephemeralfic.org Date: Tue, 6 Jun 2000 12:41:54 -0500 Subject: Heart Turned Inward by Keleka (1/1) (Post-Requiem) by Keleka Source: direct Reply To: keleka3@yahoo.com From: Keleka Heart Turned Inwards (1/1) By Keleka Email: keleka3@yahoo.com Distribution: Gossamer, Spookys, Xemplary, etc. Rating: G Spoiler Warning: Requiem Content Statement: msr Classification: VR Keywords: TLG, MSR Summary: The Lone Gunmen deliver an unexpected Christmas present to Scully. Have yourself an early little Christmas. Archive: Sure! Please tell me where so I can visit. Disclaimer: Get real! If I owned this cash cow, do you really think I'd be living in Mississippi? Feedback: It's certainly welcome in my house! Author's Note: Huge steaming piles of thanks Shoshana, Fabulous Monster, and TBishop, who graciously beta read my stuff, usually without too much complaining and always with great insight. All my fanfic (X-Files, Hawaii Five-0, and Star Trek) can be found at http://www.geocities.com/keleka3 Heart Turned Inward by Keleka "Frohike, I don't think this is a good idea." Jesus. Is he ever going to give it a rest? I pull the van off the highway onto the secondary road and stop for a red light. We skipped breakfast and I'm tempted to pull into the McDonald's to my left and get some coffee. It's a damn good thing Byers isn't driving or we'd not have made it this far. I turn to look at Byers who is sitting in the back of the van at the communications console. "Dude, it's Christmas day," I snap back at him. "This is when he'd want us to do it." "I'm not so sure he'd want us to do this at all," Byers says, almost whining. "Look, Byers, we already had this argument and you lost, two to one; so shut the hell up and get in the Christmas spirit already." Sheesh. I love these guys but, frankly, sometimes they can be so damned annoying. A couple years in the Marine Corps when they were young would have done them both a lot of good. It certainly made a man out of me. Byers continues to sulk in the back. I glance over at Langly, whose nose is buried in the map of metropolitan Baltimore. He hasn't tied his hair back in a ponytail this morning and it's cascading around his face. If Langly were a woman, he'd almost be attractive. "Where to now, Langly?" I ask. "Turn left at the next red light," he says without looking up, "then take the third right onto Bridgeport Street." When I turn off, we leave the commercial area and find ourselves in a pleasant residential neighborhood of brick and stucco homes with family-sized yards with swing sets and Japanese maple trees. Sometimes, when I drive through a neighborhood like this, I regret having chosen the path I have for my life. "There," Langly says, pointing to a modest white stucco house with blue shutters and a large front yard. There is an empty parking spot on the other side of the street so I go to the next intersection, make an illegal U-turn, and swing back to park. Leaving the van, I'm struck by how peaceful it is here. In the distance I can just barely hear 'Jingle Bells' playing. I wish we had some snow on the ground to go along with it. As we cross the street, someone coming out of the house next door waves to us. "Merry Christmas," he calls out cheerfully. "Merry Christmas," we all call back. "Man, this place is giving me the creeps," Langly mutters under his breath. "This is how normal people live, Langly," I say, laughing. "Yeah, well, give me abnormal anytime," he says. "It's more real." We're at the door now, me in front with Byers and Langly behind me. I've always been the pit bull among us, the one who's out front leading the way. Not that they aren't courageous in their own way; it's just that their courage is more subtle than mine. It's what makes us such a good team. The door is a pretty blue, matching the shutters, and there's a large brass knocker. I reach for it and give it three good raps. After a moment the door pulls open and I find myself looking squarely into someone's chest. Slowly, I raise my eyes and see a very tall man with short strawberry blonde hair and piercing blue eyes. Jesus. He's built like an ox. If this is who I think it is, it's no wonder Mulder avoids this guy like the plague. He's smiling, no doubt filled with Christmas spirit, though his smile fades quickly as he gets a look at us. "You must be Bill," I say. "I am. Do I know you?" "No. We're here to see Dana Scully." His eyes immediately become clouded by a veil of suspicion. He's in full protective mode now. "Who should I say is calling?" he says, apparently deciding to be the polite professional until he determines for sure whether he needs to kick my ass to kingdom come. I know if I tell him we're 'The Gunmen' he'll never let us in. "Tell her it's the Three Stooges." That sets him back a bit. He looks at me oddly for a moment. "Wait here," he says finally, pushing the door partly closed. I can hear muffled voices in the distance and for the first time since we left our lair I actually harbor doubts about whether Scully will agree to see us. Safe and sane, surrounded by her family, she might not want to enter back into our world of gloom and paranoia. She might not want to be reminded of everything ... and everyone ... she's lost, and every pain she's suffered. The Hulk, as I now think of her brother, returns to the door and does not look too happy. I think he was looking forward to kicking my ass. "You can come in," he says. "But if you upset her in any way, ...." he adds in a menacing voice and then lets the implied threat hang ominously. "Chill out, Bill. We aren't here to upset her." The foyer is bedecked with wreathes and candles. When we enter the living room, my eyes are immediately drawn to the Christmas tree in the corner. It is tall and full, sparkling with tasteful decorations. Then I spot the flying saucer ornament I gave Scully for Christmas last year and smile. This tree is obviously decorated with love. "Frohike? Byers? Langly?" Her voice draws me out of my tree hypnosis. I turn in its direction and see her at last. She's sitting in a large, overstuffed easy chair by the front window. Several boxes are on the floor at her feet and discarded wrapping paper is strewn about. A small pile of baby clothes is perched on her lap. For a moment I am too stunned to answer her. God, Dana Scully is gorgeous, even pregnant. Especially pregnant! There is a glow about her that I've seen matched only when she's relaxed and with Mulder. Watching the changes to her body since Mulder disappeared has been incredible. She's due any day now. I haven't seen her since she began her maternity leave a month ago and came to stay with her mother till the baby is born. In just that one month the change has been unbelievable. I wish Mulder could be here to see this. I approach her cautiously, ever mindful of her brother hovering protectively by her side. One wrong move and I could be toast. I lean down and kiss her chastely on the cheek. "You look incredible, Scully," She laughs and lays her hand on her belly. "I look like a cow!" Langly gives his greeting from across the room. He's never been one for kisses and tender endearments. Byers approaches and kisses her cheek. "We've missed you, Scully," he says, a wistful look in his eye. She smiles at him and I can see some tears beginning to glisten in her eyes. Damn hormones probably have her crying all the time now. She composes herself and then introduces us to her family. Mrs. Scully seems to have heard of us, but Bill and his wife haven't. He scowls at us when Dana refers to us as 'The Lone Gunmen,' and she hastily explains what that means. He softens a bit, apparently satisfied that we aren't about to pull out weapons and start blasting. What brings you guys here?" Scully asks when the introductions are finished. "Not that I'm not thrilled to see you." Suddenly I'm struck with a memory of the time I played one of the Three Wise Men in a school nativity play when I was a kid. I don't know how wise we are, but in some way, we're playing that role today. We're even bearing a gift. "We brought you a Christmas present," I say, my throat beginning to constrict a little. I'm remembering Bill's threat if we upset her, and frankly, I'm not entirely sure how she's going to take this. She smiles broadly. "You brought me a present? But I thought we agreed--" "It's from Mulder." Her face goes ashen. Bill takes a step toward me and I'm pretty sure the ass-whooping is about to commence. He stops when Scully places her hand on his elbow. Scully's face is a picture of agony. If it weren't us, if it were anyone else, she would think this was some sort of cruel joke. But it IS us and she knows we would never do anything to hurt her. She takes a moment to compose herself before speaking. "Maybe you'd better explain," she says softly. I nod. Yeah, I think that would be a good idea. "About a week before he ... before he went to Oregon," I begin, choosing my words as carefully as I can, "Mulder told us he wanted to get you ... something. Byers went with him to pick it out. He asked us to keep it until he was ready to give it to you. We don't know exactly what he was waiting for, but ... but, we think that under the circumstances, he would want you to have it now. He would want us to give it to you." That's Byers's cue and he steps forward, taking a small package from his jacket pocket. We wrapped it this morning in white and silver Christmas paper and topped it with a small blue bow to match Scully's eyes. We usually wrap gifts in old newspaper cartoons, if we wrap them at all, but we took our time with this special package, wanting it to look just right for her. Scully takes the package from Byers and looks at it sadly. Some tears begin to escape and slide their lonely paths down her cheeks. Valiantly she tries to smile, but her heart just doesn't seem in it. Her eyes give away her sadness. Her mother moves to sit on the arm of Scully's chair, sliding her hand down Scully's back reassuringly. "Open it, Dana," she says softly. Scully nods and slowly begins to remove the paper. When she's finished she holds a small black jewelry box. Her hands tremble slightly. "Go ahead, Dana," Bill says, bending down on one knee beside her chair. How about that? The Hulk can be tender when he needs to be. She opens the box and when she sees what is inside her eyes widen and then are filled with joy. Tears stream down her face. I've never seen her look more beautiful. "It's a claddagh!" Mrs. Scully exclaims, her smile almost as joyous as her daughter's. Even Bill looks happy. Thank God. Mrs. Scully looks at us and our bewilderment obviously shows. "Do you all know the story of the claddagh?" she asks us. We all shake our heads. "Why don't you tell them, Dana?" she says softly. Scully wipes the tears from her cheeks, and looks at us. I've known Dana Scully for over seven years now. At first she merely tolerated us and our antics because we were friends of Mulder's; later she came to respect us even though she seldom agreed with out beliefs; eventually she came to trust us and rely on us, and even to believe us sometimes. Today, however, is the first time I believe she has ever looked at us with unconditional affection. I feel blessed, as though I've been made an unofficial member of the Scully family. "Irish legend has it that a man from the village of Claddagh was captured by pirates and sold into slavery to a rich Turkish goldsmith," she begins. "In time he became a master goldsmith himself and when he earned his freedom, he returned to his village and created the legendary Claddagh ring." She takes the ring from the box and holds it so that we can see. "The two hands clutching a heart, topped with a crown, epitomizes the expression of lasting love and eternal friendship. The heart symbolizes love, the hands friendship, and the crown loyalty and fidelity." Her voice falters now. I'm sure she's thinking of Mulder and commitments they made to each other in the months before his abduction. I can't begin to comprehend how painful it must be for her, knowing that she might never see Mulder gain; or how joyful she must be at having his baby; or how she can juxtapose those two emotions. And again, I wonder if we have done the right thing. To stir these emotions in her, with her due date so close.... Mrs. Scully interrupts my thoughts, continuing the story. "The legend also says that if you wear a claddagh on your right hand with the heart facing outwards, the world will know your heart has not yet been won. Wear it on the right hand with the heart facing inwards and it shows that you have friendship and love under consideration. But worn on your left hand with the heart turned inwards, the claddagh means that two loves have joined forever." As I watch Scully slip the ring on her left hand, heart turned inwards, I know that we have done the right thing. *end* The Gossamer Project Author - Title - Date - Spoilers - Crossovers - X-Files - Adventures - Stories - Vignettes Other stories by Keleka / Please let us know if the site is not working properly. Do not archive stories elsewhere without permission from the author(s). See the Gossamer policies for more information. /